The world is on a twisting bliss. One moment we were free from doing anything we want—shopping at the malls, having late out nights with friends, lesser time spent with our love ones, and so much more. The unending freedom suddenly was frozen when Covid-19 happened earlier of 2020. I am sure, people have adopted flexibly to that abrupt change. I, myself, did despite the overwhelming fear of bringing the virus home to my love ones. I bravely put my fears behind, instead went out to the field as what most frontliners do. Yes, I am a frontliner. I was once asked, why I still choose to continue with my fundraising job—because my heart cries for the undeserved children. It was what made me continue with that, I can fully say that 2020 ended well despite the fact that virus was still there.
When 2021 came into the picture, I was full of hope. I was overjoyed that this year is going to be a breakthrough. A lot of great things happened especially in the first quarter of the year, however the unwelcomed uncertainty hits the nation again when the government put the neighboring areas on ECQ. I felt like we are back to square one and with that being said, my inner peace was shaken. The government cannot sustain the needs of the nation if this ECQ will last longer than the predicted days.
While the anxiety is increasing, the mixed emotions of being grateful and being afraid of the possibilities is undeniably disturbing. As a certified overthinker, I had all the why’s piling up. The what’s that clearly made the experience surreal, etc. But what else can I do than to take care of my sanity? I have boys who lean on me. They need me—which is actually my biggest fear.
As I am on a two weeks work-from-home set up, I am grateful of that opportunity to be able to have the chance to talk to my friends online. I don’t forget people but when I work, I don’t get the chance to ask how they are doing. Some of them are thriving, some are mentally and emotionally challenged, most are doing well but are starting to fear the unknown. Somehow, I had the time comforting them. I was able to spent time talking to them over the phone, reassuring them that this will past is something that me more compassionate of being their listener during this trying time.
Realization hit me hard. While these people struggle to find the right person they can talk to, I on the other hand, have people that I can open up anythime, people that reasssures me and be there for me. My job has helped me alot to chose my battles. Being exposed to public, meeting people with different walks of life helped me gained the chance to listen and understand.
It is a matter of giving these people the chance to freely express how they feel. And it is what most of us need. We need someone who will let us talk and express our grievances without judgment. People who is willing to share their time is already a blessing to anyone. Please choosse to be a blessing..